Hi Antonia,

This thread resonates with me as well, thanks for starting it. As I am entering my fourth year into H's MLC I find that I still cycle. Not as long or as deeply as at first, but I find growth in myself each time I do.

I try to live in the here and now because that is truly all we have. My mind does wander at times though with what ifs from the past and the future as I, too, thought I had a really good, if not great M. I think most of us do/did, otherwise why we would have bothered joining a site that was about trying to heal our broken Ms? I still believe in fairy tale endings except now it is without the rose colored glasses. Whether it happens for any of us remains to be seen. I just try to leave my heart open for anything God has planned.

On the subject of your XH crowing about the ow's accomplishments, well it just seems to me that he is working overtime trying to convince everyone that he didn't make a mistake, especially himself. Doesn't seem to working out too well for him...

(((Hugs)))