Tori, yes I am pretty active with other people, I have been blessed with a great church family and they are taking pretty good care of me. Rejected is what I feel at times. I am working on me validating me and not needing it from anyone else.
vero, I am working on getting involved in some volunteer work. Their is actually a volunteering meetup group close to me
labug, what is driving my need to change. I am not to sure, great question. I am most likely wanting to feel desired so... if I move on I can actively try to find someone who fills that need. That is the irrational me talking. The rational me wants to work on me, get an interesting life before I try to enter another relationship (with wife or another lady). In hopes of finding a completely new and exciting way of screwing that one up, this way has been done and is getting old lol hahahaha.
Afa, yes almost like a WAS, difference is I'm going to stick around ask for help and give myself and my wife plenty of time and opportunity to fix our issues. She may not do that, it's her choice. Yes I asked my neighbor about eating and watching a movie and she has plans tomorrow night. I said I would ask her again, i'm going to suggest that we get together once a week if she is comfortable with that.
Eyes, yes completely taking advantage of our daughter. I told my D I will not ask her what her mom is doing or relay any messages for me. I also asked her to tell me if I ever make her uncomfortable with what I say (I try not to say much about her mom in front of her). I think my relationship with my D has actually grown closer through this. i am trying my darndest to validate and listen to her, i even repeat what she says to make sure. A 180 for me...
I am better today, i cried at church during service and a wonderful lady with MS and struggling to walk came over to give me a hug. Asked me if i was okay and wanted me to sit next to her. I love my church... I then went over to a friends house and helped home cut some fire wood and we ate dinner then watched a movie. So yes much better today. Some days I feel like a three legged Hippo in a but kicking contest and some days I'm winning, as everyone here has had to deal with.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
