LA, 25 has great advice above. You know that you need some new coping skills and are aware of what to look for in your H is he is really ready to move forward.

Best of luck and keep us updated on how it goes. I truly hope that your H has forgiven you. Just remember that this will be a new R, keep your expecatations low and play it cool.

M44 H57
D17 (special needs)
M 18 yrs
Bomb 7/2/12
Still living together