Into The Sunset

[AntoniaB]

Thanks for reading my thread Tad. I think the one place you and I differ is that it actually doesn't really bug me so much anymore that my XH brags about OW to anyone who will listen. I don't even really feel jealous of OW because the guy he seems to be with her is so despicable and I don't find him attractive--even physically. Apparently she is nearly anorexic and a fitness nut who counts calories and such, and he was always naturally fit but has become insane about exercising and watching what he eats. I had a moment of totally cracking up yesterday when I was making my breakfast, because I used to so enjoy making him a big hearty breakfast, and all I could think when I was frying my bacon and dishing up the pancakes was that maybe, he'd get an egg-white omelet and that awful turkey bacon from her and an admonition to go out and run off what he just ate. It made me laugh out loud and I thought, if he EVER tried to take my bacon away from me, well, you don't want to know the result!

I think where you and I are in agreement is in that feeling of love for the person that our spouses used to be, and I guess that's the operative word, "used" to be, but right now, that's not who they are at all, and our disbelief in the whole situation is what makes us feel we can't drop the rope.

Time will fix it, for both of us, I think. And you know I thought more about the stuff in your book and how you are two people, of two minds. I think there are a lot of times that I will WRITE things like "I know that I will never be with him again" or "I'm too different to be in a relationship with him again" or even "I'm over him", but then later, I won't feel that way, and all I can say is that maybe people who are writers tend to try to write things they want to be true or wish in hopes that if they say it enough, it sticks!

Probably on the days when you are most down it would help to read your own MLC book!! Because in there are things you must have felt at one point.

Glad to hear the books are doing well!