Hey Sub, I, like many others, of course know somewhat of what you are feeling. I'm there now. 8) How is your neighbor? Invite her over for any dinners yet? 8)
It's very had to figure out how long to "stay" or "leave." Not sidetracking this convo or your feelings, but this popped into my head...This sounds eerily familiar to what the WAS experiences, at least preBD, to "stay or leave."