I have no idea how i will ever get this guy to talk. he's said a million times he liked that i talk and he doesn't have to.
you are right i guess- he is a liar and i'm a talker/giver.
I wonder tho- finding this out after SOOOO many years (35) what the heck does it mean? can it change- or really will i be wasting yet more years of my life on a r not worth it. (conclusion i'm coming to)
this has shaken my faith in him as a person rite down to the core- perhaps he is not a good person & worth it?
maybe i'm a block head and every single time he said something ratty & wiseguy - that he posed as "teasing" and i took that way - when it was actually "truth" and he knew and i didn't.
possibly i've been deluded my entire life- so now-
i don't know- thanks for comments- i think you're rite. maybe i'm just "too late" in finding out who he is REALLY.
IT'S a hell of a long time to be mistaken about this guy...
(also begs the question what the heck has he been doing keeping me there with lies????? who the heck would want such a doofis - if that's what i was and he knew it all along.... what the heck does that make him if that's as high as he aspires? (i mean, i think i'm really special - but what the heck is he doing in this r for so long if i've just been his "patsy" -) one sure has to wonder..
boy - oh - boy- what a pile of spagetti my life & brain is at this moment.
