Hey, picnic sisters! Thanks for checking in. I'm calming down. It really didn't help that my BFF is unreachable for 10 days.
I went over to some other friends' for dinner the other night, when I was feeling really emotional. They asked me one simple question and I started crying. Oy.
Of course, they're wonderful, but not with the DB plan, so they spent all evening asking why I don't initiate contact or tell P what I want. Or at least tell her that I'm not initiating contact because I'm trying to respect her wanting space. And does she know that I'm (effectively) "waiting" for her right now? Shouldn't we communicate about this? By the end of the evening I wasn't really sure of the answers to anything.
This is the first time there's been no planned future contact to look forward to. I'm looking into the abyss.
I'm doing a good job of focusing on eating healthy and staying fit. I've decided to add some meditation to the daily habits I'm refining.
