Busting and Tori, I did sleep well. Actually a couple hours more than usual.
The consensus from.best friend, dad/ mom, and my friend / therapist are that I'm continuing to put myself in a situation that will ultimately ruin me personally and professionally. I see their point to an extent, but I know I am not ready to date nor file.
Again I do have a little hope for a new R, but am much more focused on me not her and / or OM. Those thoughts occur a whole lot less often amd with less pain. As this thread is titled, I'm trying to do what is right for me. I went to an outdoor sculpture park this afternoon by myself, simply b/c I have been wanting to go for awhile now and the weather was decent. The park / sculptures were pretty neat. I choose to go alone, but I will admit it would have been nice to have someone(s) to share the experience with. D12 sent me a text while I was there, so I sent her a POV and told her I would take her and the boys on the next nice day. I've done some more reading of the book, and it is helpful to an extent. Goal is to finish it before I go back home tomorrow afternoon (then I can hide it at work with the rest of my books...lol). Now I'm trying to find something to do this evening.
So in short, like most of us, internally feeling alone, missing the kiddos, but in a fair mood. Guessing this is a good normal feeling.
