I want to congratulate you for being at this junction, where you have a REAL chance with your H. I think almost everyone on these boards would love to be in your place right now (at least I would).
I have been following your thread in the background for a while because I admit that I have seen a lot of myself in you. I hope you don't take it the bad way, but I so relate to what 25 and your coach have told you. It's like they were speaking to me through you. I have been so angry and resentful that I am even embarrassed to admit it. I know how hard it is to let go of the past, of the bad dynamics, of the hurt...
So as someone who has been stuck (in a HUGE way) for a VERY long time, I want to wish you great success, not only in your reconciliation efforts, but in your personal journey. As long as we are alive, we will have a chance to change that in ourselves and at least for me, I am not giving up on myself.
Yet you have the additional opportunity NOW to turn things around also with your H and get the life that you want and get rid of all the dead weight you may be carrying inside.
I have no hopes of R at this time and that is why I really, really am cheering for you. Seize this chance, let go of the past and make the best of yourself and your M everyday. You deserve it!
I will be following your progress and hoping the best for you.
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D