Thanks Eyesopen. I decided to Hot tub with D and a buddy. Feel much better now....just have to maintain it. I was just struggling with the feeling of being taken advantage of....most of it I might be exaggerating to support my feelings. I don't know.
I just need to continue DBing as best as I can and try to manage my emotional peaks and valleys. When I get to the point where I want to be, If she leaves, she will be the fool!
