Next Step, Moving On

[dorightman]

Just got off the phone with my w. she told me she is totally done. This is because a few nights ago I was alone with my kids and my daughter wanted to call w while she was at grad school. I told her that she couldn't because it would be disruptive. She picked up the phone anyways and started to call. I got mad a her and took the phone from her and I told her to stop telling on me to w because it could make things worse for our marriage and family. I know that I was wrong to say that to her, but I was reacting to my fears because my w already has been coaching her to tell her everything I say and do and I feel like she is against me and my ability to discipline is undermined .

I know how wrong it was and I know I was acting out of fear and I know that I should never put the pressure of my sitch on my 8 year old daughter.

Anyways, she told my w everything I said and she probably even exaggerated a bit.
This morning my w told me she knows what happened and that I acted in the lowest possible way and that she cannot forgive me and that she is totally done and wants me out of the house. I talked to my daughter this morning and told her I was wrong to say those things to her and she said she forgave me and we hugged and everything seemed alright between my daughter and I.
I know how wrong I was and I'am really sad that I went there. It's just been so diff ult for me to function in this environment. I love my family, my kids especially and I know I will never do that again, but Im afraid my w will never trust me with the kids again and that she will never forgive me for it. She is so extremely angry at me right now, she just wants out.
Is there any hope?