You called her when this morning I thought you said you were going to not get into those convos.
I know I shouldn't have because it could have went bad but the call from lawyer freaked me out and I had to talk with her to see where her head was. Right or wrong I did feel a little better after we talked.
Last night I had no intention of talking with W about anything but she started conversation. We discussed the custody stuff and were both level headed and I think we're back to the original agreement (but who knows). We talked about assets and she said her L is convinced I'll try to get more and I reassured her (again) that I have absolutely no intention of fighting for more than 50% on anything. I said I understand that she wants out and I don't want to fight over stupid material things and want this to go as easily and quickly as possible. I told her if it were up to me we would settle this whole thing between us and would have it done quickly without all the L expenses. I told her I still care about her and I would never do things to purposely hurt her or make her future harder. I swear it looked like she was about to cry which really surprised me because she's not emotional at all. She then asked me why I've changed my mind on the original plan with regards to separating (original plan was to stay in same house until it sold). I was a little surprised because night before she said she wanted me out of house and out of her life. I told her I can't stand the tension and I'm afraid things will only get worse as D process unfolds and I don't want kids seeing that side of us. She then shocked me again and asked if it was just because fight last night because other than that she thought things were better. I didn't really respond to that statement because I didn't know what to say. You guys know that I've been emotionally all over the place for months and feel like I'm now an actor in my own house. How can she say that after basically attacking everything about me the night before? Maybe she really doesn't understand how much this is hurting me? Her eyes were a little watered so I asked her pretty bluntly if she wants me to move out? She didn't answer and just stared ahead. I asked her if she wanted me to draft anything up to give her a reassurance that she would be financially ok and she didn't respond to that either. I told her I'm really trying my hardest to make this as easy as possible for everyone. She finished convo by saying she has to think about things and she'll give me a proposal soon.
I have no idea what the heck this talk means. She is either really confused or she just can't communicate at all and enjoys mind F'ing me. I didn't linger on it much last night and just had a good night with kids. Our talk really hasn't changed my feelings towards her or S. We'll see how weekend goes after these last couple days, family weekend at indoor water park hotel should be fun.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
