Shortly after the initial BD we did sit down paper and pencil and looked at everything. Yikes! . Also, she allegedly met with an L, and they narrowed everything down to the penny for us / her and how little $ she would have. So we can do this aspect w/o a 3rd party. We were / are able to pretty much stay on track.
The 2 main things that she has stated throughout the sich in terms of money and anger is 1. I have introduced / afforded her a better life than she ever managed (financially compared to where she came from - our meager savings is more than her parents ever had); and then she won't be able to continue the same lifestyle whereas I will be able to stay the same for the most part. 2. W thinks I will use $ to get what I want legally and be "vindictive". I've tried to reassure her that what we do will be between us and what we have / don't have. I'm not going to cash in stock / accept $ from my parents. And yes, I can easily put myself in her shoes regarding the whole money scenario. Despite knowing what $ I grew up with (my grandfather was very well off / trickle down to my parents), I have generally always been humble. In my early adulthood, I quickly realized $ doesn't define how good someone is based on how much they do or do not have. W knows this.
So I last night, I finished working out / showered and came out for a drink to see all the lights off. Not even a "goodnight" from W. No biggie. This am, W told me she would be unreachable due to work stuff. "ok". Not like I was going to call / text or her anything. Normally haven't, so that was a little strange. The she sends me a few chit chatty texts. The most interesting was her last text that said "Sometimes I miss our old life, looking forward to coming home watching a movie and sharing a bottle of wine.". My internal response...WTF? My actual response, "Yes we did have some good times, including the chick flicks that made us each teary eyed :)".
Guessing it is more of the "pursuit / pull back dance" and minor second guessing of the sich / her outwardly mourning the death of our M.