Soul.Searching my way back.

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks Bug. It pisses me off because the kids are noticing and they tell me. I see their sadness when they do. I haven't said anything to H about it and I'm not intending to. His life, his choices.

He didn't come to the funeral which was fine, it was his choice. Surprisingly, no one asked about him either. He asked me how it was and apologized for not being there for me. I told him I did not need him there for me but that I had thought he would have wanted to be there because it was my uncle.
He said he was upset he couldn't make it.

It's irrevelant anyway. I'm over analyzing him, I'm over analyzing our M.
The only thing left for me is to work on me and my fucture.
I know the mistakes I made and I surely do not intend on making them again. I will be DBing forever more. I don't need to focus on the past anymore.