When tapestries of life get tangled in the loom.

[Big Bruce]

Ah ah,
Yes, my S's name is Bruce as well.
I love him so much I gave him my own name. (I was the one who wanted the baby. W didn't really want one). You'd have never guessed, heh?

(Which is kind of a give away if ever W finds these posts. Oh well, I'm just sharing how I see things IMO.)

I wonder how W manages, he looks like me and has the same name..

Yesterday, W said it was 4pm and she hadn't heard from me yet. Usually I confirm way before the time at which I go to pick up S. This time I tried to keep contact to a minimum, and show up as usual (since 6 months) at 5:30-ish (after work), on a Thursday, which she knows it's the day she allows me to visit.
She said she had to go somewhere yesterday evening at that she would be taking S with her, and we should arrange a later time.
I said no problem in a first email and to call me. She didn't call. So in a second email, I proposed to come pick S up today evening, to make up for yesterday --> This show interest in seeing S.
And I don't mean that in a tactical way, but she can't just cancel my already rare time with my S, and don't expect me to ask for replacement.


On the proceedings side, yes I'm asking one more visit day per week because they are delaying the hearing.
In my view of things, W is preventing me to have access to my S. She is only allowing me two visits a week, of 2 hours each. Which is outrageously insufficient I think.
--> Indeed, how am I supposed to learn to take care of him, change diapers, bathe him, have overnights, etc... if W won't allow me more time with him?

Yes, my L thinks I should have more time with S too. But W doesn't agree. And that's the whole purpose of the hearing, mind you.

--> I think the grudge she is keeping is bigger than I thought. This thing won't be resolved just like that. She is super resolved in getting rid of me, to the point of denying me my S.
If it wasn't for me talking about asking the help of the Court, we'd still be with supervised visits or who knows what other scheme to further reduce my access.

Contrary to Crimson and other's sitch, my W doesn't live alone, she has the full support of her parents, you know the ones who didn't come to our wedding. She doesn't feel a void in her life or has the space to miss me or have memories resurface, because her parents are there. Therefore, it makes it super difficult for her to make any change of mind, nevermind a change of heart.

How to soften her heart nonetheless? That is the one million dollar question.
Bonsoir,
B.