Into The Sunset

[tadpole1025]

Thank you all very much.

I'm going to rattle your cage because I have seen two Tads and I want to know which one you really are. I see the lost and confused Tad that posts here and I've also seen a different Tad that just recently had a book published entitled "Navigating Your Spouse's Midlife Crisis...A Trip To Hell and Back". So, which one are you? The writer comes across as being calm and very collected and has his head out of his @ss and has pretty much gotten himself together. The Tad that's posting here is constantly feeling sorry for himself and appears to be having a pity party today...so which one are you?

Thank you Snodderly. No need to apologize about rattling my cage and shaking me up. I actually believe that I am both people. I am doing soooo much better emotionally, but.....I do have my times. I guess I come here when I am feeling down. This site and you and everyone on it has been a life-saver and maybe a life-changer for me. I wrote that book for others AND me. I hope to have a bigger and better one out someday. It is funny though. I can be doing so well....well enough to write a book about this mess and then I'll remember something or think that maybe she really was unhappy with me or hear about something that she posted on FB and it gets me rattled. She is bragging a lot on FB (I've been told) about her upcoming wedding. Does it bother me? You bet it does.

I second what Snodderly says, because I bought that book and read parts of it and I agree with that assessment. The guy who wrote that book sounds like a different Tad altogether.

Same dude Antonia....just two different moods I guess.

Wow, how timely that it was that I popped onto the board today!!!

Coincidence? Big time!

I can tell you that LIFE will return to normal if you let it but it takes TIME, and for each of us that amount of time is different.

Thanks MHL. I miss reading your stuff. I WANT my life to return to normal and I WANT to be over her. I can't seem to break entirely free though. Hopefully soon......

You know where to reach me bud!

Thank Eric. You sir are a good man. I hope to be in touch soon.

I echo what the others have mentioned - the feelings don't just stop. They come back to visit once in a while. Don't be surprised by that. Don't think you have failed because of it or that you aren't healing. Just remember that healing doesn't "end" but rather it continues for a very long time. Maybe for the rest of your life.

Ug! Really AJ? Like I said, I do WANT to be done like she obviously is with me. It is taking me a very long time. I sometimes think that my user name should have been "Turtle1025." I've noticed that it hits me the most at night in bed sometimes. She'll just pop in my head and I'll feel anxious and hurt and filled with disbelief. (Yes, even still.) Althoug, I will admit that I haven't felt like crying in a very long time. I ran into an old radio listener of mine the other day and he couldn't believe the way I looked and how my life has changed. Tell me about it.

Mo matter how much you turn this around and around in your mind, no matter how much you remember your past life, no matter how hard you want it to be different, it just is how it is. That's the simple truth.

Thanks Urworthy. I just need to make the best of what I have right? It's not much at the moment. I'm still struggling with the finances. I'm not getting very many hours these days and am still trying to dig out of the enormous hole. Not sure I know you. Have you changed your username? I may have an idea....

I'm not a very good writer, but I'm going to keep doing it. I have two more books in the works. Both are fiction and they are about halfway done. I'm also thinking about writing a "how to" book about raising and training rats. I've got two of them and they bring a lot of joy. As of right now, they are the only two girls in my life....Beebee and Piglet.

Both of my books are selling. Surprisingly, the one about this crazy mess is selling about 3-4 times more than the fiction book. I guess that I shouldn't be surprised.



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