Went to attorney today. He was ok but was telling me I was getting ahead of myself when I was asking questions. Like about finances . He told me to treat the divorce like a hurtle race. One thing at a time. I was asking about alimony and he said they go by 12 points which are subjective and might go to arbitration or mediation.

He said I'm too worried about h and his reaction like anger. What is wrong with me that I care about how he'll react?

I need to be more angry. Anyways the attorney told me I need to ask a realtor what house is worth without the repairs it needs. Said I may have to give it back to the bank. Won't make any money off it cuz of what's owed and equity loan h took out.

Spied h texting with an alternate phone. He thinks he's clever and getting away with something . I ran downstairs real quick just to see what he would do. Should have seen him hide it quick and walk into laundry room. Makin an excuse to find suitcase for trip he's takin this weekend. I'm going to try and find another attorney to interview just to compare .Maybe a woman. Although the guy was ok. There was a woman who was recommended to me but she had reprimands and sounded shady. I'm gonna check out women's resource center at local college.