Thank you all for responding... Bond, Floyd, Starsky. GH, that was a great post and I needed it. You have a lot of good advice to offer here on piecing AND on newcomers. I just want to say that.
Things are a little better. My mind has been much less consumed by the past these last few days. Everything that ALL of you said is true. While I would like to talk to my W about it, Starsky is right... I don't want to admit to snooping. It would upset my W. While she knows that I am watching her present actions to make sure that I can trust her, I just know that she would be hurt that I am going back in time to drudge up things that I know, deep down, she would be ashamed of. I have no doubt that this would cause her to become defensive. That wouldn't be good for us. Right now, I am tempted to go with Starsky's idea about the 'triggers'. That is more vague and also something that I've told her in the past. So I think that she would understand better. And it would also shed light on why I am upset. I may not even do that unless and until I run into the problem again. Hopefully I won't... but as GH says, I probably will.
Thanks again guys!
Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce