It's not uncommon for a parent to be angry when they see their own children making the same mistakes they did. Sprinkle in depression and it gets worse. At least you are compassionate about it.
Your fears? That's natural. But I highly suggest you do what you can to deal with them if, and only if, they materialize. Easy to say I know....
It's also natural to want to tell the story. To have people know the truth and not villify you based on the slander a MLCr tells. I still feel that sometimes even years into it. But I can tell you that an outsider usually doesn't care to know. I'm glad H's mom had that conversation with you. I know it helps. But know this: people will see the truth. If you try to tell them, you'll come across as complaining and crazy in many instances. They will believe what they want to believe and you can't control that. But they do figure it out over time
You aren't crazy or a monster. It's really not about you. I know that is harder but it will help bring peace at some point later.
Peace, AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
