Hi Everyone! I hope that after almost 3weeks into the new year, we are all moving in a positive direction. Progressing in our sitch. I hope that you are all learning to love yourselves without the need of your H/W love and affection. I hope that you have all moved towards parenting yourselves.
Recently I heard this said 3 or 4times at different meetings. "Don't go to the hardware store for milk and bread." I felt as though it was meant for me to drill it into my brain.
Last night, after noticeable hesitation from H, I asked him (in a nonthreatening way), why is he so apprehensive when it comes to our weekly dinner outings w/o the kids.
He said he felt apprehensive. Worried that it might spark an argument or questions from me.
It's been a while since this happened. Almost 2mos but I notice that 2mos for me is 2 days for him.
I thanked him for his honesty but feel myself shutting down. Why? I asked myself.
I feel as if I'm forcing someone to like me. I thought back to a time in college when I had a somewhat similar feeling. I felt so embarrassed at myself for practically throwing myself at this guy and realizing he wasn't that interested.
This morning H sent me a text telling me not to stress so much about our money sitch. He thinks that's what's consuming my thoughts.
I am aware I'm throwing myself a pity party. My goals for today, pray meditate journal read my Al Anon lit meeting tonite
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
