So many effin opportunities for growth lol. Yes, we certainly do have them and I love that we have each other to reaffirm to each other to use them.
I hope your trip helps you get some mind space for yourself. You have had a challenging period lately... a break from it will do you good I think :-)
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
Hey, picnic sisters! Thanks for checking in. I'm calming down. It really didn't help that my BFF is unreachable for 10 days.
I went over to some other friends' for dinner the other night, when I was feeling really emotional. They asked me one simple question and I started crying. Oy.
Of course, they're wonderful, but not with the DB plan, so they spent all evening asking why I don't initiate contact or tell P what I want. Or at least tell her that I'm not initiating contact because I'm trying to respect her wanting space. And does she know that I'm (effectively) "waiting" for her right now? Shouldn't we communicate about this? By the end of the evening I wasn't really sure of the answers to anything.
This is the first time there's been no planned future contact to look forward to. I'm looking into the abyss.
I'm doing a good job of focusing on eating healthy and staying fit. I've decided to add some meditation to the daily habits I'm refining.
(((SD))), how are you doing??? Good I hope, stay strong and choose your own path in life. Friends are great but don't let them control you, at the end of the day it's you that you have to answer to.
I'd love to go bird watching with you, tell me more about your plans. Remember I'm living vicariously thru you lol.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
I'm back from a few days on the road for work. I sure needed that change of scenery. I was passing a wildlife area with some ponds and pulled in for a little bird watching, Subguy. (Of course I had my binocs with me. If you leave them at home, then for sure an Ivory-billed Woodpecker will fly over.) I would have stayed longer but it was ridiculously cold out.
My GAL activities are limited in the winter. The beauty of the birding course is that it's 2 GAL activities a week for 8 weeks in the spring. Extra points because it involves birds and humans.
I've been trying to develop new routines, creating habits that take good care of me. It's a challenge to maintain those when I travel (which I do a lot in the warmer months). This short trip was a good way for me to get started working on that.
BFF is back and a couple other friends have been in touch. I think I've been lacking in the social category of taking care of myself. I'll be giving that more attention.
I guess I'm pretty fried and don't have much in the way of coherent thoughts tonight. Catch y'all later.
I just got back. Haven't caught up on sleep yet, but here's the short version: transformative. *Highly* recommended. What 25 says. Stick around and see if I sound any saner after than before. I can only hope...
Special bonus for me was meeting Lucky Luke. He's pretty amazing in three dimensions.
Special freakout was being thoroughly undone by the hot dyke posted at the door. I thought I was old enough that my hormones wouldn't mess with me like that. My BFF got a good laugh when she asked me what this woman is working on now. "That's a really good question that I couldn't think of until this morning." Impressive display of social awkwardness. Oy!
This coincided with P missing my birthday. Again. She was so mortified last year that I thought she wouldn't do that again. Sigh. I'm shaking my head.
Funny enough, I just returned back to the trenches and saw your recent post! Guess we're back on that winding road once again and re-learn everything we all forgot back in kindergarten.
Happy Belated Birthday to you! What would you like to drink...and the tab's on me.
What would you like to drink...and the tab's on me.