I have always been a tell-it-like-it-is sort of gal, so keeping any blunt comment I would have made to myself was hard enough. Because we are separated geographically, the only communication we have is by phone. So I am glad that silence is something I can use when I am not sure I can stop the anger. I really would like to have said, "well, that is your choice."
It occurred to me this morning that his EA began over a year ago now and in hindsight was no doubt one of the main causes of his distancing himself from me and from some of the odd things that he began saying. Still, I never suspected that he was lying to me.
And now, I do not trust anything he says, good, bad or indifferent. I know that I am lucky that he is at least not angry with me and no longer spewing.
Yes, I am seeing the daylight. But sometimes it hurts my eyes (very bad for my PMA)! Reality is such a funny thing. There is my reality and then there is his. I know I will be perfectly fine without him, I just really do not want to be.
