Trying to find the balance this week. W and I are still talking, laughing, and working well together in terms of the household, but there's zero physical contact now. It's a huge switch from a few days ago where we were touching the entire time we were around each other. I've decided I'm not going to pursue on this given her statements to me earlier this week.
Regarding GAL, I've been out the last couple of nights with one of my Bs, but I was home relatively early. W didn't even ask where I was, which I found odd...usually she's 20 questions when I'm not home. This morning she did ask me if I would be home tonight and I said "I don't know, why?" She said she didn't care, but wanted to get the house cleaned. I am planning to take my S18 to the movies, but it'll be an early one. I also booked a wine tasting for next week, so that should be fun.
One of the things I've wanted to do for a long time was travel. W never wants to go anywhere because of work, or because we're behind on bills, or something. I've decided to just start doing some. I'm heading to NC for a few days at the end of the month to visit friends and then I'm going to start planning a trip to San Diego or San Francisco. I already booked a return trip to Jamaica for next Dec, though now I may have to find a new partner to take, and I'm discussing with family the possibility of heading out to Vegas in the spring.
All in all I feel pretty good, but it's definitely a shift in gears. I'm a little sad and a little hurt honestly. But I am at the point now where I believe I really have to move on for W to even have a chance to figure her own stuff out. I think the "happy limbo" kept her in a place where she didn't have to address anything or think about anything.
