I had a fairly good day (good compared to ALL other days recently). Had a snow day w kids at home. Morning to ourselves & spent good relaxed quality time w boys. No H, no stress.
Then H came over around lunch time (as he also had no work), snowblew our driveway (yeah-cause I've NEVER done this & don't want to, but was already talking to S13 about figuring it out together).
Went about my own business in the house & felt completely DETACHED from H--didn't feel like or need to interact w him, but when he said something to me I remained positive or at least neutral & I didn't ignore him either.
It did feel a little weird when he took a nap on the couch in the middle of the afternoon...why is he hanging out at our house when he's not interacting w boys? I guess he feels he's here if they need/want him. (Boys actually had friends from the neighborhood over to play so they were occupied & didn't seek our attention for play in afternoon).
I took ADs for first time today. I felt dizzy about an hour after taking them, but my dr said effects would take at least a week. Will give them the 2 weeks he suggested to analyze their effectiveness...then I see him again. He also gave me an anxiety med to take as needed--not sure if I will take it.
Am seeing a new IC tomorrow to see if she is a better fit for me as I am coping w this nightmare. She was recommended by a good friend who went thru a D about 6 years ago.
GALs this weekend- 1. GOing to a staff post-holiday party. 2) All 3 boys have bball games on Sat 3)??? the gym (does this count?)it isn't really social for me.
Today I had thoughts about being happy again (in the future). I don't know what brought these on, but hope I have another day like this one again soon!
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
