Unpacking my bags

[bustingout]

Simply PERFECT. you made me smile from my heart.

[StubbornDyke]

Great title!

I'm reviving an old mantra that helped me feel empowered right from BD: "I'm not pining. I'm moving on." Maybe edit to "moving forward". It helps me to change my focus when I find I'm waiting for the phone to ring.

[needgrace]

I like that, especially with the forward edit... and I am adding "I'm finding more of myself and my strength each and every day" thanks, SD.

[needgrace]

Read this quote today and think it fits quite well with DBing...

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”
― Rumi

[needgrace]

OK I am keeping my commitment to come here first before acting (or reacting tbh).

I had my physical today and I share doctors with my W. My MD is wonderful and she knows all about the D.

A few weeks ago, during the DB debacle, W told me that she was still having side pain and that the MD is sending her to a specialist and even mentioned the possibility of cancer... although the MD seemed to think it was something else.

Fast forward to today and MD asks me if W and I still have any R or contact now... I answer that we did a few weeks ago, I acted like a 12 year old and that I am not ready for it.

Later, I am home and thinking about the MD's unusual question... made me wonder if something serious is going on with W's health now.

What does everyone think?

[Valeska19]

I think you might be wanting to reach out to her? Why?

IF she does have health issues and WANTS to share with you - She will.

I know this is hard. I know this is painful.

But you have to let go of her. It doesn't mean that you aren't still there for her but you have to accept the choice she has made.

((( )))

[StubbornDyke]

(((((((((((NG)))))))))))))

Your brain is trying to kill you. I can relate.

[subguy]

I think your over reacting just a tad bit here. A little mind reading is going on. Like Valeska said let her go if she wants you to know she will tell you. It's tough but unfortunately that's where we all are at, between tough and holy crap lol.

[labug]

(((Grace))) Those things are the hardest for me to let go of too, but that being said I think you used a trampoline to jump to that conclusion!

[Soul.Searching]

Lmao at the last three comments! You guys rock! Lol

I know how hard it is NG but the others are right. We have to set them free.