Bklyn Gratitude

[BklynMom]

I emailed stbx last nights about job offer. I said something like "I got a 3-4 month job offer out of town. My gut says now is not the right time. What do you think?"

No response from him.

This has triggered so many emotions. He was such a big part of my career decision making and now he couldn't give a sh!t.

I am sure something about my email made him angry and reaffirmed for him what a manipulative b!txh I am. But I am trying to act normal and not over analyze every email I send. It's really hard though when his responses are not normal and I cam still feel his anger towards me.

Meanwhile I have been medicated, dbing and seriously calm since sept 2011 and and yet I can still see the anger in his eyes when he sees me.

It is clear more then ever to me that my h has had a major breakdown. I really don't think he will ever wake up.

Urgga Urga. Ahhhh. I feel better