not sure where to go from here

[tiredndrained]

He is angry and lashes out at me. There are many times we do get along but the times he is mean and cruel it is abusive and hurtful. He mainly gets this way when I question where he is going or what he is doing. I have really been trying to get better about not saying anything to him. I can usually go so long before I get upset about it since the kids get upset about it. I feel like he yells and calls me names to change the subject and try to divert the conversation from why he is doing what he is doing. He never said or acted this way prior to what I assume is a giant MLC. Since last weekend I've pretty much been dark. I don't talk to him unless I have to. I asked him not to contact me by phone unless it pertains to the kids. I feel a lot calmer and more in control since I've backed away. That is why I am considering throwing in the towel. If you do stick it out and they do come back and work it out, does anyone feel like your friends and family will look at you like your crazy for even considering it? My family thinks I'm crazy for even tried to stay with him. I know they have my best interest at heart but I feel as if they will forever look at me like I am a total dope for even giving this a chance if I do hang in there.