Thanks Bug, Wendy. I don't feel like it's loyalty as much as interest that I have. Other than the recent times when her anger was working its way out, she's really pleasant, fun, and interesting to be around. I got an hour of that on the phone and I missed it terribly when I hung up.
She's choosing to maintain a level of contact below what I need to keep me engaged. And besides, she moved out and far away. The old R is dead and gone. Every time I'm reminded of the good stuff, I get to do some more grieving.
Given how plans for our fall and winter time together evolved, it's clear to me that I need to make plans only with myself right now.
A road trip is tempting, but I'm thinking about a local birding course for the spring that involves lots of shorter trips. That's been on my bucket list for at least a decade. Might be time to just do it!
