Happy Belated Birthday to your daughter. I know it had to have hurt that her father didn't participate in her birthday. Hopefully, things will be different next year.
Your h is depressed from what you have written. He's not yet reached the point of wanting to ask for help. I don't know how much further he can go into the pit before he does, but going to work the way he did is not good.
Dawn, hang in there. Your little boy has to grow up. I am keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
