Does the pain EVER go away? Wake up with a 20 pound goblin on my chest, tormenting me with thoughts of H and ow, replays of conversations with H when he tells me his definition of me, of our marriage. While H slumbers peacefully next to me.

H's strange comment of the day for yesterday. He referenced XW2 who has recently had a mastectomy.

"So if XW2 and I had never split, I'd be almost free now."

I frown, puzzled, "I don't understand."

He explains "Well with her cancer. Its probably only a matter of time - I mean she probably only has so long left. So I'd almost be free now."

I look at him. "That is a strange thing to say."

"It was a joke! Man, you have no sense of humor!"

No, I guess I don't.

Me 46 H 56
M 22 yrs
S22, D20, Twin Ss18

You teach people how to treat you by what you allow.
What you stop.
And what you reinforce.
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A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.