Thank you, GH31...it has been difficult, and eventhough I will never forget the boys and think of them every day, my S has to see us move forward.

It is amazing how many baby steps I see over the past month...little things that H has been doing...not so much with/for me, but thave changed. Things he hadn't done in a while...put laundry in...making a dinner that I mentioned wishing we could have...coming to me 3 days after not wanting to return to MC, saying we could try another one.

Plus many more....DBing working or wishful/hopeful thinking?