Thanx harrier,you are right,he is mad at himself and thats the reason that i belive him.I have to say that last few weeks our relationship is better,im not angry at him,im sad.im angry at OW and im sad because we lost something special for good.i adviced him to go to therapis when he was depressed,but he sad that he is ok when im with him,and we are not fighting.and he is really much better when he sees that im not sad or mad and we spend a lot of time together.he said that he will never forgive himself .i want to forgive him,but i cant forget how i felt when i found out,i have pics in my head how i think that happend,and this hurts and from time to time it takes me few steps back
