Still walking the path to my own happiness

[mamabird]

It's sad. There are so many wonderful resources available out there that we could be taking advantage of to help us get out of this situation. But my H's heels are dug in so firmly... he's so convinced that he doesn't want to repair any of it. This just adds to my list of resentments towards him. I have guilt around it besides - I think this is mostly H-induced guilt in the vein of you f'ed up for good this time and now you (and our children) will have to live with the consequences forever, because you are not worth working on it. Guess that would be good fodder for my next IC session.

I know I need to work on "burning my resentments". I will get there in time. Actions follow feelings which follow thoughts. I have to adjust my thoughts to more of a "letting go" mindset and I'm not really ready to do that. I know I want to let go of it so maybe I ought to focus on doing that.

Hopeful, you are a good woman for hanging in there - at this point I could not imagine myself feeling too loving towards my H or looking forward to seeing him. Once in a while I do get a loving feeling but when I try to act on it he shuts me down.