Still walking the path to my own happiness

[RegretfulLA]

H called to talk to the boys tonight, loudly announces over the speakerphone that they are getting an iPad mini (in addition to the 2 ipads they already had). He gets this stuff from work and instead of giving it away or selling it, it all sits around our house collecting dust. I have a netbook with no plug that I'm trying to figure out what to do with. I think it got used one time.

I have no desire to talk to him, to hear his voice, to be involved whatsoever. Can't even stand to hear him talking to the kids on the speakerphone. I don't think this is detachment. It feels like done to me. I want my monthly stipend, I want my bed, I want my independence.

Maybe it means I haven't let go of any of the above because I still feel actively resentful and my best way of dealing with it is just not to for a while. I just feel like I want him GONE.