first time - need help still

[albamarie]

Hi. Nero
I can't be in a tail spin anymore, I don't think I can mentally handle it. Yesterday I cried in the shower praying for God to get H far away from me.

He talked to me about work and I looked at him blankly, he said I don't know how to be human, I said I don't know how to be heartless. He said he knows and it's bad I am getting hurt by him.

Tonight he said goodby, and thank you for the computer, he feels guilty about how distant he is but needs to be distant..

So you see I can't be in a tailspin because he already is enough for both of us.

I really need the vacation though, I would love a beach about now or hiking in Nevada. I feel the need to be really active, you know that out of ordinary thing you only do on vacation.

Don't let family bring you down, they always feel so intitaled to be rude but I don't agree and have disowned a few members over time. Stick with who you know you are and don't let anyone tell you different.