not sure where to go from here

[tiredndrained]

My H cheated for over a yr...tells me daily Im the cause of a his problems...calls me a C-t daily..says we not married..abandoned us for days n mos at a time. He tells me daily he hates me. Screams at my kids constantly. Gave my S a bday card this that read Love dad n Maria. He laughed n high fived the kids n joked that moMmy thinks he has a gf and the truth was..he had a gf all yr named Maria. He goes out every night n when i ask where he going Im told none of your F-in business. He took our money when we didnt pay our mortgage n bought a sports car n ran us into debt all along buying presents for OW n taking her out every day. Im not being defensive but from my perspective things are pretty bad I cant imagine it can b worse for someone else.