Mini journal & several questions I'd love some input on.
Made it home a little early. Interactions with W were okay. She was a little friendly / chatty and then again a little withdrawn. I spend my time focusing on the boys as D12 was hanging with W. I worked out. W went to bed earlier than usual (still not feeling good). I ended my night with a late meal watching TV. A nice little change. This morning W maintained overall same demeanor. Asked if I was willing to help get S2 ready for daycare. Of course. So no biggie either way.
A few details about the convo the other night. With some questions. It appeared she was questioning the D. She had a sad look in her eyes. She agreed it was partially sad & the pain meds. She stated that she felt that I was being manipulative b/c of money. Using it to my advantage ??? I did have a christmas check in my wallet that I admittedly did not cash as I was unsure of what to do with it. Pre 2nd BD, it was going to be ours to use towards bills. I honestly said I was holding onto in case I needed to pay a L. She pleaded I deposit so that we don't hurt ourselves too much financially. I agreed (and did the following day with which she genuinely thanked me). So how can I show her that I'm not using $ as a manipulation. I'm not. Side note, I did start a separate acct for dividend checks (they should be coming soon). What if / when she sees them? Also, we have a credit card. I asked once again for it back. She agreed not to use it, but "what if there is an emergency?" Isn't that sort of a manipulation on her part? Or at least kind of a cakeeating move?
