Oh I get that you are not looking to travel the world just yet. But I was more wondering if you were going to stay in your M until he graduates.
I know it comes with with a lot of heartache. I can see that. I guess what I am amazed about is that you are able to compartmentalize. You can stay there and not have some hope and expectation as far as your M is concerned. I couldn't do that. I found myself getting more and more depressed and more and more resentful. I am watching all my friends moving on with their lives and I'm sitting in limbo (one that I chose, I admit) and it pi$$ed me off. Are you really able to sit there that long and pull that off? Or... if you are going to stay anyway, do you keep trying to figure out how to make it work? Have you given up because you truly don't see a point or have you given up to protect yourself from going down my path?
The tricky part for me right now is that while in theory I have made a decision, I don't have hope for much right now... I don't look forward to anything. Very different from my separation the first time. I was able to function much better. And I can't quite figure out how to get out of the pit.
Yeah, you're a smart lady and I figured you were probably onto the e-mail thing, but I thought I'd mention it. Sigh...
