House for sale. So Sad. Family Breaking Up (pt 2)

[FloydMan]

Thanks Bug.
No, I don't think it's fear. I have been on my own before. I know I can survive. I have been through a lot health wise and survived and can make a good income.
I think it is the hurt. Deep hurt of the betrayal. Not just of the A but everything. Promises to make it work and not give up. Promises literally days before she pulled the plug. This will sound victim like but essentially i feel used. Financially and materially and especially emotionally. I poured everything I had into this family for years. I did nothing for myself and that was okay but now for what? Spent little on myself and spoiled everyone else. Her irresponsibility with finances and co-parenting have angered me. Now the litigating path she has taken. We agreed to 50/50 and that all changed once L was retained and wanting support too. The ruthlessness of her behaviour. The disdain she has for me does not make sense...at least from where I sit. I honestly believe that definitely I am not perfect but not I have never been cruel, mean, abusive, unfaithful, etc etc. yet, it is all my fault apparently.
I tried treating as I would like to be treated for so, so long until November and I started this 180/LRT thing so maybe it does come across as anger you say it will show if it is there. I honestly and truly do not get her anger and resentment and that in itself angers me I suppose. I am angry that W will not let it go of her anger but I cannot control that. She does not want me to be nice or do her favours. I guess I am angry too for being right, or at least being so prophetic that she would not deal with herself and it was all about me and I was out through the ringer. I am angry at the selfishness. Wow...I could go on but even that vent drained me. Geez you'd think I was the WAS justifying.
So, what do you mean figure out my boundaries? Know what is too nice or pursuing?
I just want us to be nice, get along and have fun but not sure if I can if the result is D. How is that for sounding conditional? Pathetic eh? I just don't believe it is the right path and the resentments will never go away. I wanted out after the A but saw the light. That the M needed fixing and was sold on that. Buyer beware I guess.