not sure where to go from here

[MrBond]

Not to put down your efforts, but seriously? You've been at this in a couple of months and you say that you've "tried for so long"?

You want to know how long people have lasted? Anywhere from 1 to 2 years plus. And this includes those who have been treated much worse than you.

So ultimately it is up to you, however if you don't allow time for things to change, they won't.