What I'm about to write is not affecting me one way or the other but are things I've noticed since NYE that have intrigued me. Just wanted to get your opinions (guessing most will be to not think about it and keep working on myself and doing what I'm doing). Throwing it out here because I've stopped trying to figure W out because I'm usually wrong anyway (but I am curious and a little confused )). Maybe just normal distance/ pursuit dynamic?
Since NYE my W has been kind of 'lurking' around where I am. Not really initiating talks out of ordinary but just being in same room/ area of house.
She's gone out of her way to thank me for things, especially all the work on charity and website. First time in a long time that I don't feel taken for granted. So weird because I'm now acting, and feeling, more detached from her than I ever have; even though I'm not fully detached by a long stretch.
She is doing everything with kids and me again. She even went bowling with us??? They just called while I was typing this and planned a family weekend retreat for this weekend (skiing and indoor water park hotel).
She's talking to people on phone without going to other floor of house. Other night I swear she must have forgot I was reading in next room because I heard her tell her friend that she just hopes God can take away her shame and guilt for her past and how she's treated me and others. She said she just wants to be healthy and be able to be truthful with everyone. I so wanted to go in and say you can start now with me but I didn't. I just snuck upstairs and pretended like I was up there the whole time. I'm afraid her pride and fear of something may never let her take the chance with me and I'm not even sure how I'd react now if she did.
And the oddest one is she is hardly getting ready anymore. For couple months after filing she would get all dialed up every time she left the house. She bought new clothes (nothing crazy, just new) and looked really good. Since she got back on NYE she hardly gets ready at all and wears sweats and sweatshirts a lot (even to work and out doing errands). Heck, today kids had a half day and wanted to meet me for lunch and she was in some beat up sweats and looked like she just got out of bed with no makeup. Made me wonder what in the world happened.
Even though she isn't showing anything maybe telling the kids was harder on her than I thought and she just didn't know how to emotionally deal with it. Or likely I'm reading into and trying to rationalize things that don't mean anything.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
)). Maybe just normal distance/ pursuit dynamic? 
