This afternoon my S21 was having a talk about him taking not-H to a doctor, S21 was saying how he could at least try to get something to help with the dep.
NOT-H insisted he didn't want to see life clearly, and how he likes his angry and possible chemical imbalance. S21 said that was nonsense and that was the condition talking. NOT-H then spewed, no I don't want to be subdued by a doc I don't love "her" (me) anymore pointing in my, not even in the room direction.
WTF I wasn't even talking to him...why does he keep saying that. I went in and said, well you must feel backed against a wall by your S21, cause you just had to attack me.
S21 said, see how mom didn't react to your words and get upset...it's because we can understand what your going through and know what sh!t is going to come out of your mouth. Mom is learning and understanding you better, why don't you help your self already and get off the living rm floor.
Why is it so important for him to continuously repeat IDLY! I am pretty smart about excepting and understanding MLC but someone explain this particular phrase.
Is is because he know's it's the best attack/defense he has against me?
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
