Ok, time to start over then. I know absolutely what I did wrong in the marriage and I have been working extremely hard to "right my wrongs" so to speak. I completely understand what you are telling me but how do I deal with this on a day to day basis. I question EVERYTHING! My biggest concern is around what type of contact I should have with H? One of the negatives in our M was I did not pay enough attention to him. Now, as much as I want to, he doesnt want me to. but I don't want to push him further away by being distant and cold. My brain tells me to make sure he knows that I love him and miss him and how sorry I am. Ive even written him another letter, this will be number 3. He doesnt ask much about "me" anymore but I am going to be proactive and tell him things so he knows im not hiding anything from him. Im also going to start answering the phone if he calls for D so he can hear my voice and I will be happy and cheerful. Its the day to day stuff I need help with.
