Will ask for ADs, maybe anxiety meds too. (Thoughts about ADs from others who have tried them?)
Sorry you're having a rough time! A couple of months after BD I fell into an extremely deep chasm of depression and anxiety. In 3 days time I got 2 hours sleep total. I was falling apart at the seams and felt totally dead inside. I've never been that low in my life, it was horrible. I started on A/D's (Viibryd). I started feeling a little better after about a week, but it really took 3 weeks before I started feeling like my old self again. Initially they told me to take it at night, but I couldn't sleep so they gave me Ativan for that. I was able to sleep with the Ativan, but woke up feeling fuzzy-headed and groggy every day. I finally moved the Viibryd to mornings and was able to quit the Ativan. I was still getting anxiety attacks (for no reason, they'd just hit during the day and I could barely function, couldn't even sit) and they gave me Clonazepam to take just when the attacks hit. It worked quite well, it knocked the anxiety down right away. As the Viibryd took hold I needed less and less Clonazepam until I quit it completely because I wasn't getting anxiety anymore.
The only reason I typed all that out to you is so that you realize you have to tinker with these things (with input from your PCP) until you find the combo that works for you. It's kind of black magic, what works for one person may not work for another. But in my case, the A/D's (once dialed in) worked wonders and made me feel like my old pre-BD self. At this point I haven't had any anxiety at all in 3+ months and I've been tapering off the A/D's as well, I'm down to 10 mg (was at 40 for a while).
The doctors call what we're going through "situational depression", so it's quite possible that you just need to be on A/D's until your situation stabilizes. If (like me) you hate the idea of being on long-term med's, just look at it as something to get you through the worst after which you can taper off of them.
