So, I just read your thread and there's information missing.

You said current W, so it seems you've been married before. You also mention kids. Ages? Do they live with you?

What happened to cause D in your previous M?

What are you working on changing about you? Not the 37 Rules stuff but how are you really changing you?

Physical violence is scary for most women. Your impatience and the violent outburst could have been all it took.

Are you often impatient? Are you quick to anger?

I see you're on ADs, are you also getting counseling?

Keep posting, it will help.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss