wishing, Not being able to sleep is a symptom of depression/mlc. The demons are visiting him in his sleep and there's no way he can shut his mind off. He's a miserable chap and doesn't know how to make himself happy.
You are doing the right thing by focusing on your kids. Enjoy them while you can because they grow up fast.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
