I wouldn't say I've got mine completely under control either. I mean, we all have expectations simply because the other person is a human being, something called "basic courtesy." We all expect to be able to operate by some minimal standards. Even H will tell you that lying is bad, and he certainly doesn't want me doing it to him. But then he does it and shoots my expectations. So I wouldn't even say that I've managed them, but rather that I've learned that they're pointless to have. I would be a fool to expect H not to lie to me. There has to be a reason to have an expectation and I simply don't have that reason. I could insist that I should be able to have it, especially since H even claimed the same expectation, but that wouldn't change anything.
I read a quote recently that said "expectations are disappointments waiting to happen." I agree with that in concept, though it's a little morose. I think we have to live by some expectations or we would never get out of bed. But I'm pretty practical about things and don't have expectations where they're not really warranted by their own standing.
How are you doing? I know you said you just wanted to run back home. You know what you would be running back to. Are you able to get any moments of peace?
