Struggle that has recently come up that I'm actually surprised took this long is the lack of any physical contact (ML). It's a need not being met and no positive outlook with W in near future. I have no desire to look else where yet. Hopefully can find things to distract me but this may get tough to deal with as time goes by.
Is your PLL "PT"? Mine is, and going without it for months and months just became unbearable. W has been content to live her separate life, our interactions are limited to dealing with the kids. I have no idea if she's dating, but there's been a "hoverer" that probably is OM. In any event, I started dating. I'm not trying to keep it a secret from W, but I'm not offering up info on it either. It was right after I started dating that W signed us up for RetroV, but I don't know if there's a connection there. And she has yet to tell me why she signed us up, and I'm not asking. I don't know if she's finally ready to try or what, I figure it'll come out when we're there (it's this weekend).
Regarding the dating, I've been going out with women that are MUCH younger than me, I can't say there's been a serious connection with any of them but dang, it sure has been fun! And it has rebuilt my self-esteem and confidence like nothing else since BD. Not that I recommend it for you or anyone else here, it's a personal decision and in my case was one I didn't follow through on until I became convinced our M was well beyond hope.
