Well an absolutely amazing weekend. I have my ACOA meeting tonight and my W continues to support me on it, or at least doesn't question me about it. Lots of physical touching over the weekend from her and me. Small stuff initiated by her. Lots of joking around by her involving kids. My love language is physical touch & affirmations so my tank is full. Still sleeping in the spare room which feels akward now that we are getting along.
I still have fear of telling her about EE. I am talking with someone from EE today about program etc.
Doubled GAL from last week. I have ACOA tonight and dinner with college friends on Wednesday.
Our little cooking dinner schedule seems to be working nicely. This is 180. She hates that I don't cook. So I made a list of things I can pull off. Like steaks on the grill, burgers etc..
She even asked before bed last night which nights were mine again. I told her Mon, Wed, Sat.. She joked about it.
I have a pretty good feeling she would be into take the 5 love language quiz online if I worded it right or approached her right. I'm pretty sure her's is act of service. I know for sure its not physical touch, affirmations, gifts. I'm guessing acts of service and quality time. But if I'm completely wrong that would be nice to know.
We actually went over the neighbors house last night (the one she though I had affair with) and had a great time. She has become friends with her and I always was friends with hubby. This seems to be behind us now
Still positive steps going on. She has definitely stopped texting OM and her phone has been wide open. Ironically I have no desire to go into her phone even knowing passwords. I just don't care. Having fun like we have been doing is more important to me
Anyways sort of just journaling.
One thing I do struggle with throughout the day is fear. I fear she will turn this off. She has in the past .That and forgiveness. Forgiving her for the words that have left her mouth in the last year. I try to look at it as her way of healing from all the idiotic things I've done as a selfish self centered ahole of a husband over the years
