Journaling: Had a good weekend. Saturday the weather here in Michigan was a crazy 59 degrees so got a nice outside run in. D7 rode her bike to "pace me", we ended up going 1 min/ mile faster then I was expecting but I made it . We all then went to church and out to dinner and had a good time. Church sermon was basically about how life mimics training for a marathon (no matter how hard things seem and feel don't give up fighting because the accomplishment is worth it). Kind of ironic since W and I are running a half together (and I'm running full later in year) and I was thinking about throwing in towel on M a couple weeks ago. Sunday we spent most day together as family doing stuff around house then went to basketball game which was fun. Both kids got really into the emotions of a college game, D7 wants to sit in Izzone for next game (student section).
Wife and I got the site for charity far enough along to publish and she seemed really happy about it. Thanked me several different times and heard her telling people on phone about it. It felt good to do something to make her happy but didn't change any expectations from me which is progress, in past a simple thank you would have me thinking we were making a turn... W and I did have a few more small talks this weekend but still treating it as acquaintance level. Thinking about last several days the nice thing was nothing she did/ didn't do or said affected my mood one way or the other.
Overall I'm about 85/15 good to down times this last week or so. I'm still having times where I randomly start thinking about things and get a little down but thankfully they don't last long and I haven't done anything stupid when in that frame of mind.
Struggle that has recently come up that I'm actually surprised took this long is the lack of any physical contact (ML). It's a need not being met and no positive outlook with W in near future. I have no desire to look else where yet. Hopefully can find things to distract me but this may get tough to deal with as time goes by.
Got letter from lawyer on Friday that next mediation date with court in D process is set for 3/12. W still hasn't starting getting house ready for sale and we haven't discussed anything with regards to assets. I'm forcing her to lead this stuff.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
. We all then went to church and out to dinner and had a good time. Church sermon was basically about how life mimics training for a marathon (no matter how hard things seem and feel don't give up fighting because the accomplishment is worth it). Kind of ironic since W and I are running a half together (and I'm running full later in year) and I was thinking about throwing in towel on M a couple weeks ago. Sunday we spent most day together as family doing stuff around house then went to basketball game which was fun. Both kids got really into the emotions of a college game, D7 wants to sit in Izzone for next game (student section).
